i'd like to blabber, but of what i do not know. i'll just blabber, i guess. i am worried about not having lights for our show. i am worried about not having an audience for the show. i am worried about my grades. worried, worried, there's no use being worried so i'll change this outlook and just do what i can, like Nike says 'just do it'.
To break the topics down: i hate dev comm, i really hate dev comm. i do things for it so i can pass, not because i like doing it. Not that helping people doesn't make me happy; just that i have a different definition of the word 'help'. i also hate having to look for a thesis topic. i already received a five for not passing my comm120 journal on time. i am interested in my journalism classes., but my body always seems to be so uninterested in waking up at 7:30 in the morning. i want to do my journalism article already, so Lord have mercy and bring me and my classmates some form of miracle and give us Time for a Christmas gift. But of course, the Lord will just smile and say, you're on your own this time, girlie, you need to learn. i realize that. so i'll stop hoping and just do what i can, like Nike says 'just do it'.
And to top all this, i have this production i so want to succeed, my efforts for which were not good enough. My contributions to the whole thing were not enough. i was not enough. But it's two days before the big day and i cannot back out, cannot turn back time, cannot think about not being enough. so i'll stop sulking and just do what i can, like Nike says 'just do it'.
now when all this is over, i hope i don't end up knowing only one thing: just doing it.
